I must say that I also enjoy the insanity and grotesqueness of Nip/Tuck. And the music. This is the full-length version of the opening theme - unsurprisingly, there's a ton of thinspo videos set to this song, but there's also a bunch of thinspo shit set to Radiohead's "Creep" and Fiona Apple's "Paper Bag," so whatever. It makes me think of... well, grad school, but life in general if you're living in Go Getter World. And I realize now that I am back in that world, and deeper in than I was as an undergrad because the emphasis now really is on becoming a full-grown yuppie, not just getting hot drunken pictures of yourself on Facebook (which is, I think, what it was in undergrad). I kind of consider myself lucky that I fell into this job, even though I hate it and am fairly bad at it, because it hooks me up to the two professors who can connect me to anything/anyone in the very narrow field that I want to enter. Hilariously I apparently decided to wed myself to this field in a matter of, oh, a month. But I've sworn off government work as an option, so there you go. I am left with think tanks. I think I'm just kind of like, "okay, fuck it, Southeast Asia politics it is, fuckin' good enough." My point is I don't necessarily feel like I have to struggle as hard as other people I know who are just starting to feel out a direction. Of course, there is more to life in Go Getter World than having a well-connected job, as we all know, and I still feel pressure - "perfect soul, perfect mind, perfect face" - like whoa.
Added: I think this pressure is also there for men in the grad program - obviously. But it is different for women. It's like we have to impress fucking everyone, all the time.
Also: It reminds me of whenever I'm asked "where else did you apply?" and I say that I chose AU over George Washington. Even AU people don't get why I would, sometimes - why wouldn't you go for the better name, regardless of anything else? And when I explain that GW didn't click with me, and AU did, I tend to get blank stares. I usually have to add "well, AU is giving me way more money than GW would have..." before I get the "oh" of understanding.